I spent much of the year in a paralysing state of incertitude, endlessly rewriting the same cursed document, and got burned out towards the end. The first few months of the year were spent in lockdown, and looking back at my calendar there are entire weeks which come up blank. I almost gave up writing to this site on a few occasions; there just wasn’t anything to talk about. It was a frustrating and unhappy time, I’m glad it’s over.

Still, looking back at my 2021 resolutions, here are the things I did:

And a few other personal achievements I hadn’t planned:

A few things which don’t really count as achievements but deserve a mention:

In the past I’ve been through periods where I just dropped a lot of projects and had to focus on just one or two things. I have a growing todo list and a large drafts folder, and that situation needs sorting at some point.

In a similar theme, one of my goals for this year was to limit the number of things I get involved with. I got active in my union, and I’m glad I did, but it’s another layer of meetings and emails and things to do.

Finally, here are a few things I should have done, but didn’t:

After encountering an error with pacman, which I never took the time to fix, I gave up on using my Pinebook Pro. I always intended to reinstall Manjaro but it was always more convenient to fall back on my old Lenovo Ideapad.

I’ve now ordered another new laptop for next year. I’m looking forward to receiving that, but while I’m doing this self-criticism, there was a personal failing here. I had this relatively new laptop just sitting on my desk for at least six months, and through that whole period I never attempted to get it working again.

I ended 2020 with a feeling of misplaced optimism, and I feel much the same now. A bit worn down, hopeful for the future, but not sure what’s coming next.